Blogger wouldn't post the rest of this at the time so here is the rest. Thanks all for your encouraging words! And Jenny....DON"T WORRY! I am NOT going to try to get pregnant for at least a year is the plan. Being on the meds helps with that since I should not take them while pregnant! Thanks for your concern though! You know me all too well! Lol
The good news is that for me the medication helped bring the joy back into my life! Things still bug me or annoy me but those feelings are no longer debilitating. I can be annoyed and yet still function. When Jetta is screaming and crying in the morning Thom can now know that there will not be a screaming crying mommy to go along with it! I can read self help books, I can be taught in church now. Before I could not handle these things because the simple act of surviving each day was overwhelming and extremely daunting.
The doc doubled my medicing when I met him last in order to try to combat the anxiety I deal with. I wake up every morning with some level of an anxiety attack. I am overwhelmed by the wonder of how I will entertain and take care of my children all day by msyelf and still get something else done in the house. Hence why when a day is completely planned out (like going to Disneyland) the anxiety is gone because that ever infamous concern is solved for that day. Anxiety for me is a shortness of breath, a tightening of the chest, a feeling of internal hyperventilation and a desire to run away. It sucks. I have been on the increased dose for a week now and I think there is some improvment but I hope there will be more as I continue on this path. These anti-depressents often take up to 4 weeks to fully take effect.
So for now I am happy with my improvement. I still am contemplating therapy but recently we learned our insurance does not cover such so the possible cost it what is preventing me. Anyone know how much one session with a therapist may be? I am thinking at least $100 and we jsut cannot afford that at this time. I am reading two self help books and hope taht these may help me get on a better path to more fully successfully function but I do still think speaking with a human who can tell me specifically what I need to do would be even more helpful. Ugh...the frustrating world of fincances! Oh well it is what it is! (sight right there that the medication is working!) :)
3 comments:
Only a year? Are you sure that's long enough?
Love you, Jamie!
I have a friend who has anxiety attacks. Awhile back she told me that she talked to her bishop about it & he reccommended talking to a LDS therapist. I don't know how much they might charge but I'd be more than happy to ask. The therapist she saw is in Ogden.
i'm glad it's working for you! after bub was born i went on anti-depressants (zoloft generic) and i was on it for about 11-12 months before i was able to wean off of it. i know i had to re-teach myself how to be active. it was all so awful that i would just curl up in the corner and shut myself off (for nearly 2 years before i saw the doctor). so while the meds helped me to not be depressed, i still had to remember how to be active (and not just physically), does that make sense? you're amazing jamie!
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