I have a college aquaintance that lost her 22 month old son earlier this year. He was her 4th child. Very healthy. Simply went to sleep one night to not wake up the next. There has been no determined cause of death. It was just his time to go.
I have another friend who's now almost 1 1/2 year old has never been out of the hospital. He has undergone a bone marrow transplant just a few months ago and is struggling to heal. There is still hope due to having a God that is capable of miracles but my heart just breaks knowing that my friend goes to the hospital every single day to be with her very sick, weak child who cannot even be awake much to socialize at all. Her husband and other two children are an 8 hour drive away trying to survive without mommy.
I feel so blessed to have my three beautiful healthy girls! They are so full of life and just as of late have all 3 begun to be the best of buddies! At night we often let them play upstairs for a bit before official bed time. Within the last 2 weeks my older two have begged that Jetta (who will be 2 next month) can get out of her crib and play with them! So of course I have given in to that. There are scurmishes at times but for the most part they just love to play together! This evening I am trying to listen to the sometimes 'noise' that they are chaoticaly making and think of it as music. I could not imagine losing anyone of them. What a hole that would leave in my heart for sure!
I wonder what this next little one will be like. I feel guilty at times when I assume he or she will be healthy like the rest. Why would I be so lucky to have 4 healthy ones when there are so many out there who are not that way. I hope and pray for this 'luck' and that this next one will be as healthy and crazy as the rest! And I hope and pray we may all live a long time together on this earth but thankfully no matter what we will be able to be together for eternity. What a true blessing the knowledge of what happens to us next brings!
Liberty, Paisley, Jetta....mommy loves you a whole bunch! I know I often don't show it or say it especially lately. You have had to deal with a very grumpy mommy who's been sick and tired for months now. You all have been so patient with me and I SOOO appreciate when each of you tell me how great I am and how much you love me especially on those days that I think a monkey could have done a better job with you guys that day. Our future is bright! I love you girls!
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darling pics!! It's so hard to see friend lose a litle one. Can you do me a favor? Make sure T gets his pertussis shot before this one is born. It's on the rise in pheonix right now and was declared an epedemic in Ca not to long ago. Thanks!
Beautiful pictures. I love the post. It's funny, we're waiting for our forth to arrive, and all we can think about it what special need she will have. It's funny, we've ended up with three special needs kids and to think we could land a healthy one seems... I can't even think of the right word. I pray you get your healthy baby boy, because I know you'd love a boy!
I have a friend right now who has a little 3 year old fighting for his life after they found him at the bottom of the pool :( soooo sad. I felt the same way when I was pregnant with Brody, I was worried that he wouldn't be healthy since I was already blessed with 3 already. Plus my pregnancy was a lot more complicated this time. Scary. hang in there and just know what ever happens is meant to happen.
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