Serious Improvement Here!

Okay so yes Christmas has come and gone and not even one picture up. Not even sure where the camera is right now so still no pictures will come.

But I have to comment on how so far 2012 has been one of if not the very best year yet! Sure it's only the 21st but I would say that most years by this time I have already given up on my 'resolutions' because I missed a day. I have this extreme perfectionist in me that I am slowly trying to destroy in many ways. When I was younger I started a journal but if I didn't write in it every single day then the next time I would go start my journal writing goal I would rip out the previous pages in order to start fresh and new and perfect. How sad and crazy is that?! When i was learning to write I would erase and erase and erase until I had holes in my paper if my letters were not just perfect. So the idea of having a new years resolution that I do not keep 100% of the time is somewhat hmmm...frustrating and debilitating. I feel like such a failure that I couldn't be perfect in that one thing. So then I give up all goals so that I don't have the option to fail. If you don't try you don't fail right? Well obviously that is incredibly wrong considering you fail by not even trying!

This year I will turn 30. Ugh...I shudder to reach that age. Am I really that old? When I drop off Liberty at school I often think that I am way to young to have a kindergartener. There is no way that I can look old enough already! And the choice people I communicate about this agree that I do not look 30! :) Anyways, whether or not I am ready or look the part I will turn 30 this May. And with my new decade of age I feel I have so much more wisdom in me. I can do really well with my resolutions and it is OK if I am not 100% perfect because at least I am trying and I am improving! Admittedly once I miss a day of not accomplishing a daily resolution it is twice as hard for me to accomplish the goal the next day because well there is just added temptation to skip since my perfection ability was just shot the day before. But I continue to plug forward and I think this year really will be the greatest year yet in so many many ways!

The biggest resolution we have made as a family is to take the TV out of the home. Well really it's in the basement on an old dryer but nevertheless it is not able to be watched. I know that this is the right choice for me and my family. Does that mean that everyone should do it? No. Does that mean you are less of a person if you don't? No! It seems that the people I tell about this resolution seem to immediately jump to the defensive on why they are not choosing to do the same. To each there own! If I was a stronger person I could have it and have boundaries that enabled my family and I to be more successful. The bottome line is that I know myself all too well and I know my children. And the TV is a life sucker in our home. Having it gone these last few weeks have been super challenging BUT so rewarding. There is a different spirit in our home. I want to spend more time with my children and am enjoying them more. They are so much happier and more creative! My house is cleaner. We are happier. The spirit is with us and I just feel so good about this decision! It will continue to be a challenge for sure. I admittedly am not the most creative person. I hated babysitting as a child because I simply do not know what to do with children. I am still learning in that regard and thankfully my children are patient with me in this regard. I still am learning what to do with myself in the evening hours when all i seem to want to do is zone out to nothingness on TV. But hey I have read 2 books already this year which is more than I read in all of last year!

Well I just had to share the exciting improvement in my life and in our home! To a great new year for us all!